FEEDBACKS TO THE TIME OF RECKONING LETTER

Hello again my dear family

The response to my last letter has been so overwhelming (over 62 emails so far in 24 hours) and the nature of many comments so profound and touching that I feel it is quite appropriate to share most of them (49 of them in fact) with you all - in 2 separate big emails.

While reading all those comments, I have been often elated and graced with numerous moments of joy and many tingling feelings of love, and in sharing them with all of you, I want to spread around some of those magnificent moments and, above all, express my gratitude and acknowledge with a big THANK YOU all that you so passionately shared with me - and all of us!

I'm quite sure more such beautiful words of support and wisdom will continue pouring in and it is very likely I'll put more of them together and share them again with you in the next few days - but I'll have also other important stuff to share including a number of urgent issues likely to stir some quite strong reactions -- one regarding "Our financial freedom in extreme danger" as Shanna wrote, because of new regulations that would allow every banking transaction in the US (and eventually all over the world) to be monitored to search for alleged "suspicious activity" (some might want to check this website at http://www.networkusa.org/fingerprint/page1b/fp-kyc-summary.html to find out more on this scheme right away and resist the adoption of these regulations), there will be more material on the campaign to outlaw Aspartame - The Silent Killer, and another one to tell you that, unfortunately the Afghanistan Petition circulated recently was useless according to the Brandeis organization monitoring the situation over there. And this will be just a beginning, of course.

So here are your comments in the same order I received them.

Love and blessings to everyone

Jean

From: link@mauigateway.com (Light)

I was hoping you would come to this conclusion. In this tranformative time on the planet..we are all being tested with discernment. We are to let go of our egos, ego..in my truth stands for "easing God out". We are to be our own guru and trust in God and live in unconditional love!

Structure will all fall in this new paradigm including the Roman Catholic Church that has hidden from humanity many truths in its archives.

INTEGRITY IS THE FOUNDATION OF SPIRITUAL LAW.. without it, nobody, no matter how spiritual they say they are...is really on a spiritual pathway!

If you get a chance, I don't think you have ever looked at my WEB: www.mauigateway.com/link

Blessings to you and congratulations on taking a quantum leap in your decision. Aloha..Triana Hill

From: TrusteeOne@aol.com

Jean:
Glad to get the good news is this message. Wish you well.
John McConnell

What do you think of the following?

A CRY TO GOD FROM PLANET EARTH
By John McConnell, founder of Earth Day

Dear God, As we approach a new millennium, more than ever before people of
every creed and culture want an answer to the ultimate questions that have
troubled civilization through its history.

What's life all about? Why are we here? Where are we going?

Science and religion have sought answers and end up with only more questions.
Beliefs of every kind abound. But no one provides evidence that all fair
minded parties can agree on. No one has presented a video tape documenting
the existence and nature of heaven.

Logic demands a cause for every effect. The more we learn about the Cosmos,
the more our amazement at both the chaos and order we find. Science now
acknowledges there can be no creation without a Creator. Chaos cannot cause
beauty, order, music and meaning.

To create art or music human beings need intellect and emotion. The Creator
of Earth and stars must be far superior to us in mind and consciousness. The
greatest wisdom we know is love. The Creator must be a God of love.

Religions have at times caused wars and violence. But at their best, they
have brought harmony and peaceful progress in the human adventure. I'm
grateful for my Christian faith and the reverence for life it has engendered.
My life experience has given me a vision of the challenge and opportunity the
human family now has to rejuvenate our planet and its human cultures with an
Earth Trustee agenda to eliminate poverty, pollution and violence. We have
the technology and information that rightly used could make this nest in the
Stars a garden of Eden.

I pray and think you hear my prayers. Sometimes miracles happen and I give
you thanks. But the unanswered prayers and the pain and suffering that
millions of people experience is too much to bear.

You must exist. But Dear God, why don't you show yourself in an unmistakable
way and tell the whole human family why we are here, what we should do and
what the future will bring?

http://www.earthsite.org

IT'S ALL SOUND GOOD TO ME JOHN, EXCEPT THAT TO ME GOD IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND SOMEWHERE *OUTSIDE* OF US... ALL THE ANSWERS WE NEED ARE TO BE FOUND WITHIN THE CRYSTAL CLEAR SURFACE OF A STILL MIND.

From: RLDEPALMA@aol.com

welcome back Jean...

keep smiling....your heart will always know what is right for you...

drifting allows us time to see something else we needed to know...

xoRdP

From: PeaceCorso@aol.com

Dear Jean:

Bravo! What you have done and what you have written are wondrous. Good for
you, for your openness, honesty, integrity, and common sense. I see you
filled with the Power of God, doing Her work, and being the Being you are
meant to be.

Be blest,

Rev. Dr. Susan Corso

From: DIAMSOUL@aol.com

Dear Jean,

First of all, it is wonderful to hear from you again!

Well, it sounds like you have had an incredible 'learning experience.' You
know, my sense of your integrity has been part of the basis for my continuing
interest in you and your work. Isn't it interesting that that is what
ultimately set you free?

So, 'bravo' for you willingness to go through the process, and discover the
lessons hidden therein!

Much love and light to you....and I look forward to the forthcoming e-mails!

Best Regards,
Victoria

From: "Christiane Blanco Vega" <chris_mariposa@hotmail.com>

Dear Jean

Thank you very much for including me on the list, I am most happy about
it...I received your first mail today and find it extremely
interesting... I've had some expirences myself too, about believing very
truly some cause was real and giving all my time and love, only to find
that, like the rest, economical interests and greed and power are
involved. One gets deceived, but that is how we get strong and learn to
UNDERSTAND things, not judge them.

Like this phrase I heard one day:
"When the power of love wins over the love of power, there will be peace."

There is, unfortunately, a lot of "guruism" as I call it. More and more, but in the end, only the truth will succeed, only love will "rule" and we'll all be in Harmony again.

Just wanted to share a thought...

..."the only way to to bring peace to the earth is to learn to make our
own life peaceful..."

Christiane
Butterfly

From: toots@rmisp.com (Phyllis vonMiller)

Hi Brother Lightworker:

I commend you; it takes great courage to publicly say i got sidetracked, etc.

Re: Integrity. I like this definition: Mind, body and soul all operating on the same wave length!!! : )))

Love & Light..........................................................phyllis

From: rainbow7 <rainbow7@airmail.net>

dearest jean

GOOD for You~!~!~!~!~~~~ ... what You just went thru just strengthened &
VALIDATED the fact all of US have Our OWN Path to walk ...as the guides say
right NOW is 'TIME' to go with In ~~~ find that what brings You Joy Peace
Comfort Happiness Love ... Listen to Your Soul's Heart ~SSS~

Jean what You have just experienced is something that will affect & effect many
People ... You are Now Walking Your 'Talk' ... You have experienced something
so strong it reMinded You 'see' Once again where One's Truth comes from ...
there are Many 'Truths' BUT Only ONE Truth~~ Yet All truths are a part of The
Truth ... LOL

Furthermore, Each person is on Their Path EXACTLY where they need to be ~~SS~~
... For such a Simple statement i had to stop & think about that for a lil
moment altho it rang true, it resonated, I had to totally Understand it ...
~~SSS~~ there is No right/no wrong there just **IS** look at the experiences
and paths we journey as a Learning Experience ... for we make NO mistakes
~SSS~~

Thank You for sharing Your experience of expansion and growth ... BEAUTIFUL
~~SSSS~~

Lovingly Always in ALL Ways ... AHO ~!~

~*serena
http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Acropolis/5731/

From: NRGHEALR@aol.com

Jean,

As I had only read a few of your writings regarding Universal Consciousness, I
was unaware of the essence of the man, Jean Hudon, and all that he stands for.
I still am curious of what I missed in years' past regarding what you had
written and believed with all your heart. Your "mission" in life to enlighten
people of the coming millenium and our role in this positive/negative
experience and our preparations that we each should be propelled toward is
unselfish and truly needed by all, as we are not going to get this information
on the evening news or some talk show. Religion is scaring people, quite
frankly, with the encouragement of last-minute saving, "send your money and
your prayer requests to....", and scientists are projecting a gloomy future of
our beautiful Mother Earth and her polluted environment......all due to the
almighty dollar. Is man so ignorant that he could not have predicted the
future problems of chemical pollutants, tree-cutting, drug prescriptions,
etc., or are we hearing what they want us to hear? Well, the news can still
talk about violence, high crimes and misdemeanors, politics, corruption, etc.
and sell their stories by airing all the mind-controlling commercials so that
we can get fatter, prettier, skinnier, younger, cleaner, happier and envied,
but it all boils down to.....what we are going to do about our future and our
children's future? We need to stop being so "fearful" and oppressed. That is
what happens to people - fear makes them listen to all the self-serving,
charasmatic leaders and follow them to the "ends of the world" to further the
"leaders" causes, not "seeing" the real outcome of this service. These
"gurus" or "Doe" of Heaven's Gates take advantage of the fearful ones and
propel them to their idea of a "better world." What's the matter with this
world, now, and in the future? It just takes courage, honesty and love to
change things for the better. If Hale-Bopp had a UFO behind it, and occupants
wanted the followers of "Doe" to board the craft, they would have landed in
the mansion's yard and opened the doors! With all the UFO abductions (and my
10-year-old claims to have been, but that's another (true) story), why did
they need to end their physical lives to get a "one way flight"? We need to
use common sense in determining what is right for us.....when the warning flag
is flown......we need to regroup (hubby is an NCO/Army).

I think you are an honorable man to have shared what you experienced with the
TF and to have apologized for the possible negative experiences that others
may have had with your unknowingness of the "reality" of this masked endeavor
after enlightening people of its existance. Not a lot of people admit to
anything anymore, and that you did is truly refreshing. I don't know you yet,
but I gather that you have a zeal for life and all of its manifestations and
get "caught-up" in the moment. I say that you have done more for the
"lightworkers" by innocently infiltrating this TF group and enlightening us
with your opinions and feelings. This experience was for a
reason...........isn't that why "ex" is in experience?

Thank you again for your truthfulness. I will be eagerly awaiting e-mails and
perusing your site often......(I still think we are related!!!!!) :)

PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
Love and light,
Debbie (Hudon) Godfrey
from Wild, Wonderful, West Virginia (orig. from CT)

From: Taweyah@aol.com

Dear Jean,

A powerful lesson and one which you have shared with an articulate tongue.
Thank you for sharing something which I believe most of us have experienced on
one level or another.....giving our power to someone else. Indeed Truth and
Wisdom abides within us all, and we are all equal, "does the Sun not shine
upon us all equally?" But my very best to you for providing an insightful
lesson with all those you feel spiritually linked to.
Namaste,
Taweyah

From: "Vibrani" <vibrani@vibrani.com>

Dear Jean

Thank you for your email regarding your decision to
remove yourself from the Fellowship. I went to your
site and read the correspondance between you and
Simon. I was not surprised to learn more of the dark
side about this individual, Simon, as I did not have
good feelings from the onset about him and the Fellowship.
But, some of his language did shock me, nonetheless.
Congratulations, Jean and welcome once again.
Love,
Nora

~Vibrani's One Source~
http://www.vibrani.com/

P.S. In addition, thank you for your honesty about what you
have experienced through your association with the Truth
Fellowship. I'm sure it was quite a blow to see their truth
and a moment of clarity, trust and appreciation for your own.
Where many others may not have disclosed what occurred,
you had the courage to care and to share. So, thanks.

From: Susan Ferguson <theldar@ix.netcom.com>
Subject: Spiritual Tyrants: Hooray!!!!: The Time of Reckoning

Hi Jean,
Yea! BRAVO!
You 'got' Simon!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
I prefer to call his book:
"Servants (ie. slaves) of the Divine Plan"
<g>
It amazed me to to see so much "truth" hiding
so great a tyrany. This period of time we live
in is bound to be one crowded with the claws
of tyranny cloaked in velvet gloves. More to
come.

I honor the God within you.
Susan Ferguson

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Inanna's Email December 1998
"THE" WAY HOME
Spiritual Tyrants

Many of you long to go Home---to be, to become, that place in consciousness that
your hearts long for. Truly that place, that Home, is always waiting for you. In fact you have never left it. It is only your consciousness that has focused elsewhere temporarily; which is also amusing because Time does not even exist except as a consequence of your thinking it does.

Anyone who shakes their finger at you and tells you that this is THE WAY to go
Home, to find the God-within you, to become that frequency of consciousness you
have longed for all your life---anyone who dares to tell you that they alone
know the only way Home is nothing but a tyrant disguising themselves as a
spiritual person. Their may not realize that their true desire is to rob you of
your sovereignty.

God IS! IS-ness is an eternally changing force that never repeats Itself. Why
would God chose to repeat Itself in going Home? Are you not totally and
completely unique? Does anyone know all your life experiences in this life and
all the other lives you have been throughout time and space in multiple
dimensions? Who can know you? Who can tell you how you will embrace the God-within you?

Only the God-within you!

Only the God-within you knows who you are and what you need. You may visit all
the masters in the Universe if that pleases you; but, in the end you will come
to realize that no one "enlightens" anyone! Who enlightened the Buddha? You will
enlighten yourself and the God-within you will reveal Itself to you in Its own
special, wonderfully unique way. No one is better than you or anyone else for
that matter. All are pieces of God and all are loved, eternally LOVED.

When someone tells you that they know THE truth and the way, it is evident that
they themselves have not realized the eternal diversity of their own Creator.
Is-ness has room for everyone and everything---unlike the sometimes very small
human mind! If God only wanted one experience, we would all be clones of the
same identical being.

Experience others reality all you like, but when you are tired of thus-and-so
disciplines and mantras and yada-yada's, come back to your own hologram and ask
the God-within you for the real recipe, the one made especially for your
delight.

The God-within you never left you!

Patiently waiting, like the lover you always dreamed of, the God-within you is
right there, right here, right now! It never went any where. It only allowed you
to wander to your heart's content until you wearied of all your toys,
adventures, and illusions. It waited for you, loving you. The God-within you
never judged you or abandoned you. The God-within you always loved you, no
matter what!

So, when some poor deluded fellow traveler threatens you with their "right" way
Home, you can gently embrace them and wish them well---and move on!

Your return Home will give you the strength you need to face the coming changes
and to recreate this world in a much higher frequency, a frequency of
acceptance, allowing, creativity, love, and fun!

I love you,
Inanna

RIGHT ON SUSAN! -- J.H.

**************************************************************

YEA!!!! YEA!!! HOORAY!!!!
JEAN!!!!! YEA!!!!!
(crowds of enlightened beings cheering from the etheric realms!)
YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.inannareturns.com
"See God in Every Eye" --Inanna, Goddess of Love
V.S. Ferguson author, Inanna Returns and Inanna Hyper-Luminal

From: Antares <antares@tm.net.my>

Jean,

You're a beautiful, honest man, so full of wisdom and passion. I
was relieved to receive this posting. Your greatest value to all of us
is just being yourself, your lovable, articulate, dedicated human self!

Hugs from the Heart,

Antares

http://www.xlibris.de/magickriver/

From: Marydevlin@aol.com

Dear Jean,

Thank you for your inspiring and extremely honest email. I can relate to your
experience, as in the mid-1970's I was briefly involved with Scientology.
There is much about Scientology that I still feel is very profound, but I feel
it has been misused, to serve the material interests of an elite few, and for
that reason I never recommend the organization. Most of what they have to
offer can be found elsewhere, both in books and in more reputable schools of
thought.

This is all part of the growth process, all part of what is leading up to what
we all tend to think of as the New Age. We try this, look into that, and
finally settle on what we believe to be the truth. And there will always be
some ideas and organizations that just don't ring true.

This is nothing new. I can't help thinking of the medieval pardoners who sold
phony relics -- and I'm sure there are many other such religious frauds and
have been since humans first realized there was a God. Not to mention the
Crusaders -- and the Muslim fanatics they fought against! Hopefully, the New
Age will put an end to all that -- or at least we will see light at the end of
the tunnel.

Thanks again,

Mary Devlin

From: "Sue Webb" <sue@cwn.org.uk>

Jean,
I am so pleased to read about your decision. Having had a similar
experience many years ago, alarm bells sounded in my head.
I am pleased that it did not take long for you to sort this out in your own
mind.
Best Wishes
Sue

From: Dreaming9@aol.com

Jean!

I missed ya!

So, you've been a bit "tied" up, eh? LOL!!
Hey, a sense of humor is great, no?
How many haven't been there and done
that? Now you have in this lifetime.

Anyhow, I love you very much. And, I
will be emailing something soon that you
may enjoy...fun for little Jean and big Jean
too. It's my 1999 update.

Walk in freshness,
Deborah ~ Nine

From: brett elliott <peteredische@rocketmail.com>

Hallelujiah!

In Love, Light and Support,

Mercury

From: "Jennie Gorman" <jennie@acenet.net.au>

Dear Jean

It warms my heart to know that you have 'seen through' the new knowledge you
were getting. I became concerned when you moved over to TF as I was
unimpressed with an email I got from them after a request mid 1998. At that
time they would not tell me who they were or give me any names, but
slandered someone (or so I felt) who I have been studying with. I was
concerned when I became aware of your shifts and the information that you
were bringing to us.

Welcome home and I look forward to the 'new' flavour of your emails!!

Sincere thanks for your time and energy given to all 'us' searchers out
there!

With love, peace and blessings always
Jennie Gorman

PS Thrilled to hear that you are a friend of Palden. I first met him in
the early 90's when he came to Australia. A wonderful soul and an honour to
know him! Saw him when I was in the UK last. Glastonbury is a wonderful
place. My ancestors come from there so it is like going home for me!

Jennie Gorman
Connexions Unlimited
PO Box 299, Clayfield Qld 4011 AUSTRALIA
Ph/Fax: +61 7 3262 3205 Mobile: 0416 213 961
Email: jennie@acenet.net.au

- supporting the necessary changes for the 21st century - transforming the
way the world thinks
...one person...one mind at a time...starting with YOU!

From: NRGHEALR@aol.com
Subject: "Time of Reckoning" Letter

Jean,

I had just written you about your e-mail and the brief information that was on
it about Simon K., but I had not read, yet, the letter on your site. Again,
what an enlightening experience. The only thing I will say this time is, your
presence in that "mess" of "Truth Fellowship" was a shining light upon the
darkness of "Simon Says". Simon discovered a game, in his confused childhood,
called "Simon Says". He learned to manipulate people with his charm and
eloquence and discovered girls that would serve him totally through body, mind
and spirit....by just telling them that it was necessary for them to do so as
he was the leader, because "Simon Says". He is really a coward by hiding
under the protection of "God's word" to further victimize anyone in his path,
and by manipulating and twisting the "Truth" to satisfy his hunger for "power"
over others. He is a living contradiction to uphold the name "Truth
Fellowship". He "walks the talk" alright! He walks right into the "flowing
river", and when you are up to your ears with "crystalline" water, it is very
hard to hear what anyone else has to say but your own blood pounding in your
ears. "Truth Fellowship" is a ship that will sink in time because of a
crystalline rock called "Truth", and the truth shall always prevail. What a
cold-hearted, egotistic, phony, robotic, imitation of a man this Simon is. As
I have to remember not to judge........I shall pray that Simon catches a life
raft and leaves the sinking ship called "Truth Fellowship" and finds a
deserted island so that he can do some thinking......but I believe that he
shall come back as he is in the "kindergarten" of karma. Too bad! He is just
an angry little boy who must have lost his mother at a young age and wants to
get back at women now, and he found a way...........

Sorry for the long thoughts, but I just had to speak my mind. I will stand up
for what's right, even if it is stating my case or speaking my mind.......I
can no longer sit back and let brazen oracles speak for me or about me, even
in nonpersonal remarks and generalizations. We all have ex-periences that
have made a lasting impression on us - some good and not-so-good, and we need
to learn from them for the greater good. You cannot grow beautiful flowers
without a little rain and without sunshine. It is what the gardener does in
the sowing and tending of the seed that will determine the sturdiness and
beauty of the flower - the flower is the "truth"; the gardener is "you and
me".

Love and light, again,
Debbie (Hudon) Godfrey - WV *< *

From: Ahaphia <odon@bc.sympatico.ca>
Subject: Welcome Back Dear Soul

Dear Jean,

Thank you for your recent letter detailing your experiences with TF and
your subsequent withdrawal. Forgive me for not answering your e-mail in
December about me unsubscribing from the Divine Plan List. I couldn't
have replied without forcing my views (since proven correct by your
experiences) upon you. I didn't want to interfere with the learning
opportunity that was being presented to you by your Soul.

I have been in correspondence with an ex-member who was also concerned
about your well being. We decided to send you Love & Light and not
interfere.

Just yesterday I told someone that I was grateful for this experience
because I came away knowing that "I Follow No Man". It was well worth
it. Seems like we came away with the same message, my friend.

Unfortunately this experience created huge amounts of fear, paranoia,
panic etc. in some people. Such a high price to pay for having such pure
intentions! But we are led by our Souls into situations that provide the
needed learning experiences for our evolvement. When Love, empathy and
compassion are lacking in either a situation or a person, I consider
that a Red Flag now, and tread very carefully.

So many powerful lessons learned from all of this!

Peace be with you and many blessings,

Ahaphia

P.S. My intentions to serve humanity/mankind in my own humble way, have not changed because of this experience. It still remains my soul's purpose and intent for incarnating at this time.

HERE ARE MANY OTHER LOVELY LETTERS RECEIVED TODAY. THANKS AGAIN TO EVERYONE, INCLUDING THOSE WHOSE LETTERS ARE NOT INCLUDED HERE, FOR YOUR LOVE-FILLED COMMENTS AND GREAT SUPPORT. AS YOU'LL SEE, I HAD TO CUT OUT A FEW PARTS (MOSTLY MORE PERSONAL STUFF) FROM SOME LETTERS TO FIT AS MANY AS POSSIBLE IN THIS EMAIL.

Jean

From: Ginny Rodgers <ginny@gobrightside.com> Subject: Re: The Time of Reckoning

Dear Jean,

Thank you very very much for sharing this part of your journey. I think this takes great courage. I wanted to tell you that I had responded to TF's questions and "they", I presume Simon, wanted the personal and detailed description of my spiritual and "mystical" experiences, etc. to which I responded, "My answers stand as written" which was not acceptable to him. This was the first and only clue that was needed as he wrote to me that "they don't accept just anyone", etc.

I am looking forward to your future e-mails and send you brightest blessings now and always. And again, thank you, deeply, for sharing.

Ginny

From: "Jennifer C Habib" <jennyhabib@breathe.co.uk>

I am so glad. I had big reservations about the sayings from this group. I also believe that we are going through a time of major spiritual growth and that the world itself will be changed as well. The world responds to the people on it. We all create this Karma and we are all able to make some effect on the outcome depending upon how we think and whether we live by what we say. All human beings are fallible. If we had perfection we would not be here. If we were complete we would stop growing. I think final perfection is unattainable because there are new ways and new love eternally opening. This is the glory of life. To preach hell, damnation and destruction is to deny the creation and its ever fruitful growth. Evil exists for us to change to good.

I am so glad that you are who you are and that you have the courage to admit a change of view.

Much love and eternal light for you and all of us

Jenny

From: OwlWoman33@aol.com

Dearest Jean,

thank you so much for your honesty and integrity...So often we get caught up in what we truly feel is right ... and it is indeed right for that very moment that we are experiencing this...

I honor your path ... and the ways in which you reach out and touch onto the things that resonate with you ... and then.... Bring it into resonance for so many...

I too have had similar experiences with different "guru" types and belief systems ... there is always a thread of truth in the telling and in the experience but so often the "messengers" get caught in their own illusions of truth and power...

May your journey continue to unfold and may your path be blessed with divine experiences ... all of which you have indeed created.... Just as we all do...

++*++*+*love, light, and peaceful steps++*+*+* LaurieJoy Pinkham
Owl Woman
www.lightworker.com/owl

From: Lightweave@aol.com
Subject: CONGRATULATONS!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Jean,

You can't imagine how happy I was to read your letter! I had heard through another source that you had - as they put it - "taken a detour" along a path paved with fear and judgement. We create all of our experiences for our growth. Sometimes we learn very quickly, as you did, and sometimes we stretch it over lifetimes. I did not comment on the path you had taken because, as one of my Native American teachers said once (when I was in judgement about someone) "I guess that's just where he is until he is somewhere else."

Like you, I found much beauty and truth in the book I read by the Truth Fellowship - except for the deep illusion of duality which it promoted and the inevitable fear which arises when one gets into the "good guys/bad guys" drama.

Sometimes I wonder how long it will take for humanity to realize that the "bad guys," whether they be physical or spiritual, are actors we have hired to be in our own drama - outpicturing of our own thoughts and energy.

Simon, I believe, is a good man - standing in the Light. But like all of us who stand in the Light, we can either face the Light and be in the Radiant Joy of Love or we can face the shadow which it casts, perhaps even believing that it is real, and be overwhelmed with fear by this illusion of darkness - not realizing that we are the source of it's existence!

We live in a multidimensional universe. There are many levels of "reality" (illusion?) which exist simultaneously side by side. By our thoughts, feelings and intent - moment to moment - we choose where to dwell.

As for the birthing time in which we live - some have chosen to focus on the contractions, pain, blood and suffering. Others have chosen to focus on the beauty of the new child which is emerging. Generally our choice is more a reflection of what is going on inside of ourselves than anything else. I have noticed that those teachers who are at peace within focus on love and joy while those who are at war with Self often outpicture this inner war as a struggle against the "bad guys," whether they be another race, religion, political or ethic group, or simply "the dark forces." And yet, in some lifetime or another, we have all been there. And at some point, when our dire predictions of doom collapse in on us as the illusionary products of our own fear - and when we have had enough pain; all of this manure will become compost and out of it will grow and bloom the most exquisite flower - a reflection of our true nature which is Love and Innocence.

I wish you well on your journey my friend.

Love & Blessings,

Michael

From: "Cheryl Lossie, Graduate Studies" <LOSSIE@edinboro.edu>

Jean,

Thank you for your heartfelt sharing. Wishing and knowing you are and will receive many blessings from the One who Loves us all. Peace, Cheryl

From: "Dr. RA-Ja & Prof. Moi-RA Dove" <luvdoves@laplaza.com>

Dearest Jean:

Thank you for the courage to share your heart story.

We understand the situation with so-called "Truth Fellowship". Their book is very inviting and full of sacred truths written in an excellent method. However, their "joining us mentality" and "manipulations to make people join them" kept us from investigating them further.

We salute your words, " >No longer will I ever give over my power to decide for myself what I feel is right and wrong.<"

However, may we gently caution you to not, as you also said, ">But I do not wish to throw the baby with the bath's water either.<" We feel your statement, ">No more gurus.<" would indeed throw away the "baby"! Because the word guru, in Sanskrit, simply means teacher! Surely you do not want to throw away all of our sacred teachers?

A teacher can be helpful or manipulative. We feel your words would have been better-put if you would clarify that we do not need to accept teachers on blind-faith and give away our power to them. We are all teachers (gurus) and students and should be free to appreciate both positions.

Since you connect with many people, you may injure some who are unsure about a teacher (guru) - simply because your words appear to throw them all away!

Again, we bless you and salute your courage, sense of duty and INNER TRUTH! Please keep up the good work! And do thank Holy Spirit for your pilgrimage to Avalon - which you may have never taken, had Simon not inspired you to dig deep for the truth!

Namaste!

From: Dr. RA-Ja Maitreya-dhana Dove/Prof. Moi-RA Mar-E Dove Publishers/AQUARIAN PERSPECTIVES JOURNAL Taos Ashram, Clinic & Spiritual Retreat Centre 7119 NDCBU-534 Camino Cortez
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From: "Donna C. Williams" <mydigs@icu2.net> Subject: Relieved!

Dear Jean, 1-28-99 9:01 AM EST

I was so relieved to receive your email today. When you first began the quest into TF, I, also felt the sense of urgency and need to become involved. I wrote you and expressed my interest and you were kind enough to see that I got the books for free since I couldn't afford to purchase them. Soon after that I began to get a very uneasy feeling about the whole thing and believe it or not, the name Jim Jones popped up in my mind. I did not correspond with you after that and luckily you did not write to me, either. I am glad you found out the truth before it was too late. Too many unsuspecting people will fall into the trap and get lost before finding their way out - others never do manage to get out. I am very glad you awoke early.

I will be looking forward to receiving your newsletters again - I missed their informative content while you were gone. I am envious of you that you got to visit England - I nearly had a chance to go many many years ago. I have downloaded Palden's book and have been getting it in installments, also. I visit the website often and marvel at the beauty and talent of the citizens. ( http://www.isleofavalon.co.uk/ ) I subscribed to their newsletter many many months ago.

It's really good to have you back again!!

Peace and Love,

Donna

How deep into space must humans go before they look back and see all the neighbors they've tortured on Planet Earth. Please help save the gray whales - visit: http://www.nrdc.org/

From: Mysticplan@aol.com

Jean,

Thank you for your openness and willingness to share this transitional experience with all of us on your mailing list. It was a courageous thing to do and speaks highly of you.

What a wonderful blessing to learn so much about yourself in such a short time.

Ultimately, these powerful words from your email say it all:

>No longer will I ever give over my power to decide for myself what I feel
is right and wrong. No longer shall I encourage others to do the same.

Welcome back!

Patti Normandy Greenwood
mystic@mysticplanet.com

Come to the Mystic Planet where you are always loved

http://mysticplanet.com/

From: "Carole Shriner" <wlagro@kdsi.net>

Dearest Jean;-

Hello Welcome Home, It is wonderful to have you back at the helm. I do hope you will totally resume your "work" with and for those of us who love and appreciate it.
Although many of us missed you we are glad to have you back, not to worry many of us have had to take little "side trips" occasionally, what matters is that You are back.

ONLY LOVE PREVAILS
from a faithful reader

Carole Shriner
wlagro@kdsi.net

From: Shanna Mac Lean <suzannemac@ioa.com> Subject: I love you, brother

Hello, Jean. I read your email, and with profound feeling, all I can say is: I love you, brother. Perhaps more than anyone, I understand this experience. Therefore, I want to recommend a next step.

There is a tremendous energetic pull from the "Dark" (an illusion of course, but strong energetically nevertheless) upon a being when one immerses in such an undertaking as TF. When I exited, I did mammoth energetic clearings on myself, but I also used two friends who are expert at this kind of work to clear me completely. There were tremendous "psychic attacks." My energy field had been taken over. It was quite a process. The soul doctors who cleared me were "attacked" by Simon very strongly. It took only a brief time to clear me, but to remove the "backlash" energies from themselves took over a week.

I strongly suggest that you contact them and talk about what they can do to clear you and assist to remove these energies. I will attempt to find the email they wrote to me about what they found when they cleared me and forward it to you. They are Carol Hathor and Cameron Dye and Carol's email is popcorn@theofficenet.com. Chin was cleared by them as well. I will find their web site and forward it to you.

NOW, there is a multitude of work we need to do. LET US WORK TOGETHER. The most urgent thing concerns the restrictions being placed on us through the banking industry. Another Illuminati trick. I will send this immediately in another email.

I will let you catch your breath. Know that I am here if you wish to "talk." I have ICQ (will send the number if you have ICQ) and we could also chat.

Jean, these passages are to strength us. We must always know that this third/fourth dimensional existence, which we are presently experiencing in our dense bodies, is only an illusion, an illusion of "our" own creation. We have been called here as workers, as volunteers, as Lightbeings, to raise frequency and to demonstrate to others "the illusion." Living multidimensionally allows us to be the highest beings we are, while assisting with many other realities at the same time.

We Are One. And I am here as your spiritual sister. Again, I love you. Shanna

From: Chicachico@aol.com

Jean, No need to reply as I am sure you are beyond busy. I sit here in the early morn filled with joy in the knowledge that you have returned to a joyful place. I appreciate your information and admittance of change in thinking. You have such a command of thought into word that my ability pales in comparison. Suffice it to say "Welcome home dear one, you are loved. In service, Jeanie

From: MaggieCLS@aol.com

Bless your Heart, Jean...I respectfully acknowledge your very generous sharing of your experiences and learning, and especially the courage to reveal the side trips into false alleys. Integrity, you say. Yes, indeed! We all must find the false paths as well as the One Path of Light, and so much more is to be gained and shared by revealing the earth-plane reality of our searching and finding, than to guard the ego with pretenses of perfection. I feel the perfection is in the nicks & dents, accepted as the Whole. Like the crystals that I mine in Arkansas and use in my teaching and healing work...many want to grab for the superficial illusion of perfection in a certain shape, or clarity, or whatever, and overlook the metaphorical significance of the healing stones. I often encourage folks to choose their crystals with their eyes closed to help them tune into their deeper insight to what is the appropriate tool for them to use.

You, m'dear, are a gem of spectacular clarity and beauty. I appreciate your gift of your writing to me.

ina minit...

From: Vstarmaker@aol.com

My Beloved Jean,

My arms have never left you. They are still wide open for your deep love and compassion welcoming you home again from your last journey.

Take rest in the comfort that the TRUTH is "ALWAYS WITHIN."

May this TRUTH, Grace your days.

From: "Pauline Johnson" <read@mis.net>

Interesting to hear from you today as I was thinking about you and wondering what had transpired. Thanks for the update. Looking forward to future "backlog."

From: HOCKEY98@aol.com

Thank You - God Bless You - Welcome "back"...

Whenever you have a chance - can you share your opinions on The "Conversation with God" trilogy by Neale Welsch???

In Love and Light,

Martial

NOTE: I HAVE NOT READ THESE BOOKS YET, ONLY GLIMPSED SOME OF THE FIRST BOOK, BUT KNOW FOR SURE MANY PEOPLE WHO FOUND MUCH WISDOM AND GUIDANCE IN THESE BOOKS. I WOULD ALSO BE INTERESTED TO HEAR FROM OTHER READERS WHAT THEY LIKED OR DISLIKED IN THIS NEW CULTURAL PHENOMENON.

Subject: conclusions on Truth Fellowship From: Peggy Zetler <pzet@montana.com>

Jean, I am not sure along the way how you gained my email but, as usual with my blessed computer, I am grateful. I have been reading and listening much over the last year...even allowing Jahovhas Witnesses in the door and too I have read the Truth Fellowship books. I have done this not just to be open and learn but because about 6 months ago I noticed that I suddenly could discern lies or sepratism quickly especially with regard to spirituality. The gloss and truth in the Truth Fellowship books, like many other speakers and books, strikes many of us at our soul of knowing.

We know without ever being told and having become quite meek from experiences, that we are all connected and meant to be more than our human traits portray. We have always believed in the magic of love and though we may have shunned that love is God to better fit in and not be a Lemming, we have always known that we are a unique part of the divine. Anyway, your conclusions after your England trip are correct. The saddest occurrence is that well intended beings cannot seem, as yet, to grasp the inculcation of fear as a joining or control mechanism. I think this is because they need unity and will find and take it at any cost thus the dominance of religion instead of spirituality. What is now being shared about Unity Consciousness is filled with such blindness but through awakenings that are very personal indeed many too are both on their own with God and joining in service with others for the higher good. When connectedness is internalized there is no need to be assured or encouraged of this and so giving with others in service is natural and divine even if the intent of others may be tainted.

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Thank you for your words.

[]Peg

http://members.xoom.com/pzet/
enlightenment is only the beginning of a wonderful process

From: "Brenda Heggie" <brendah@micropulse.com>

Dear Jean,

Blessing to you!! Wow! What a great & enlightening lesson. I will pray for Simon. Maybe he will have an awakening since he has the truth. He just needs to choose love instead of fear. It sounds like your experience has made you stronger and more clear about your own divinity. We are all one and are all going to the same place eventually. Ascension is real and is happening quickly. We are getting so much lighter!

As Conversations with God says, "fear is False Experience Appearing Real". We all need to just send love to all, even those who are in fear and using fear to manipulate others.

You said as much in your letter. Thank you for sharing your experience. I sometimes forget that there are influences like that here.

We all have the truth in our hearts and can feel when something isn't the truth. We all need to listen to our Selves and be in love as we are all remembering to do. We have so much help and we have all the tools we need to accomplish everything. (Thank you God!) "and ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free"

I am grateful for your presence here in this drama. I am looking forward to your next posting.

Only love prevails!

In Joy and Love,

Brenda

From: DrKanya@webtv.net (Kanya Vashon McGhee) Subject: Welcome Back!

Dear Jean,

Welcome back from The Brink of Disaster. As you may recall, I had grown a little reluctant to proceed further into the so-called "Truth Fellowship". I'm glad you discovered its duplicity and wonder what your next step will be?

Waiting to hear from you.

Brother Kanya

From: "The Noah Project" <noahproject@earthlink.net>

Jean,

It takes a lot of courage to admit that someone as enlightened as you can be led astray. I applaude your willingness to do so. I think you will soon be rocked by even more revelations of where you've placed your belief systems, and hope for you, the ability to face the coming madness soon to arrive at your door. We still believe in your ability and desire to lead rather than follow and are here to support you in any way we can.

Love and Light

Richard

From: "Michael J. Contardi" <michael@peaceday2000.com>

Greetings Jean,

Nice to hear from you again. I have come to learn, in my short life that sometimes the detours and side roads provide the greatest lessons in life and once learned bring us back to the Centre more potently than ever and with newfound strength and commitment. Glad to have you back. The "spiritual" community, I realize, is not much different in composition that the rest of society. Quite often the traps are even more deceptive and the consequences more destructive." Beware the false prophets, you will know them by their fruits", a Great Master once said. In standing up for your Truth, you have won a Victory for us all. Horah!!

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I look forward to our future correspondences and wish you all the best in whatever the Universal Intelligence has planned for you next.

Peace and Blessings,
Michael Contardi

From: dowen <dowen@callnetuk.com>

Just had to reply to your very personal sharing - you are growing up in public, and I must say you do so with much grace and aplomb!

As for unseen dark forces - the myth is helpful to me in extending my capacity to love the 'enemy' by encouraging my love to grow to include the 'evolutionary needs' of these 'unfeeling beings' (thus making it easier to love the 'unseen dark forces' at work within me).

I just wanna say 'I love you and thank you for the service you are giving'.

Please note my new e-mail address - anything I should do to resubscribe? (I ALREADY HAD <dowen@callnetuk.com>)

Light and love,

Shlomo

From: hermes3@lava.net (Dan Furst)

Thank you for your beautiful message, Jean. It took great courage and nobility of spirit to write this, and I want to commend the beauty of your honesty. I look forward to the other messages that you will send soon.

Aloha,

Dan

When freedom is a struggle, it's solitary. When it succeeds, it's inclusive, a communal action impelled by love.
From The Play of Freedom

From: Michael Wise <wisesongs@earthlink.net>

Dearest Jean,

Thank you so much for the information, when I first set eyes on his web site I too was curious about the seeming anger in his material. I have no need for that kind of teaching.

Please continue to send any and all material you deem worthy of my attention, they are very much appreciated!

In Deepest Divine Love
Michael Wise

From: Aklea <aklea@primeline.com>

I was delighted to hear back from you. I felt such courage from you as you posted your exploration of yourself and Truth Fellowship and your trip to England to meet Simon . Thanks you for the post of your letter to Simon on l/25/99.

It was nice to trip back to the Millennium 2000 Celebration Focus once again. For me I want to share . It was good to reconnect with you this autumn. Seeing words "Earth Concert 2000" brought forth joy. The Millennium Gathering info...joyful as well...not as much of a reaction because of my personal passion and experiences during Earth Concert l988 and l989.

I was stunned when you "switched" to Truth Fellowship. I read all. I wondered...why the shift. Personally I felt that guruness coming through and my innate wisdom said:TF is not what it purports.....it has tendencies to be a group that "is not divinely guided per se". I know you link with folks and you CARE and are
COMMITTED....why is Jean going for this. I felt if I expressed this to you...yo would turn a deaf ear and who was I to say anything...you had your path and perhaps my discernment was
incorrect...god bless you for the courage in you to peruse what you felt was good and to share it with others and then be able to share the truth you discerned from personal meeting.

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Sometimes I feel that folks get involved with apocalyptic drama or dire scenarios in order to AVOID working on themselves in the most intimate ways...right with your neibor and who your neighbor reminds you of.

Perhaps you wanted to be a guru at one time or the "leader-facilitato" of the new millenium...a lot of us have felt that about ourselves...and that is the subtlety of true we are to take leadership and it is in our soul destiny but also we are not leaders we are all a perfect interlocking intricate part of the mechanism to bring it about.

Sure would like more info on the alternative power...black light...the man who has the factory now in Princeton and his efforts. Are there any other folks who appear to be bringing a viable product to the market in energy for home, commerce and auto.....later....Love, Aklea

From: Juliet Easton <juliet77@negia.net>

Jean,

Welcome back!!! I'm glad to see you came to the conclusion you did. When you first mentioned Truth Fellowship, I went to their website and though there was some info that was useful and that I agree with, my gut instinct said "no" about any deeper involvement than looking at their website. (This doesn't surprise me because I usually have that reaction to organizations selling materials that claim to have "the answer.")

It is good to hear from you. Take care, Jean, and thanks for all that you do!

Juliet Easton
Vows of Peace: http://www.negia.net/~juliet77/vows.html Child of the Light: http://www.negia.net/~juliet77/childlight.html Awareness Herbal Products: http://www.negia.net/~juliet77/awareness.html Home Page: http://www.negia.net/~juliet77

From: "Kim Baker" <kbaker@uctlib.uct.ac.za>

Hi Jean,

Wow, I found this all to be really interesting, and enlightening. Thank you for sharing it all with us. I didn't say anything to anyone about my real reasons for leaving, but I feel its OK to tell you now. Without going into long details, I had been in a coercive and manipluative cult before, and my red flags screamed at me very early on. I ran with it a bit more, because I was so fascinated with the esoteric content, and I wanted to see where this was going. But when Simon Kaddy asked me to throw up everything and get to Enlgand, and then, he asked me to agree to marry him, while at the same time he was asking Johanna to leave her husband, I knew that this was just another guru-personality, with a particular vision of seeing himself surrounded by women, serving his every need, with him being the only "seed" needed to fertilise - which to me was just an elaborate scheme to act out what is possibly every (?) or most men's fantasy. I wrote my "role of women" post to try and draw out what I had sensed, and it was confirmed in his private response to me.

I applaud your e-mail, with full reasons, examples and evidence of your reasons, and the time you took to put it together. For me, personally, I was most grateful you found the original ideas which Simon had culled from - it just goes to show that it is not the knowledge itself that is corrupt, but humans along the way.

Without even meeting him, I concluded, from my own personal correspondence with Simon, that he was a disturbed personality, possibly stemming from his abusive childhood, and I felt very sorry for him. I am sorry I was not more open with you at the time, but I don't really know you at all, and I am somewhat hesitant to trust people I have never met. But I am very pleased and relieved that you have been so sensible about this, because I think you influence a lot of people, even if you don't want to, some still need to rely on others.....but ultimately, we each can only live our own truths - its the only truly honest approach.

Well done!

Regards,
Kim

From: estelle@pnc.com.au (estelle)

dear darling jean - welcome home - welcome back! what a wonderful J curve of learning!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I trusted totally that you would come thru - your commitment and sincerity is so strong - and at a deep level you
had already expressed that LOVE is the greatest of all powers - and that EACH ONE/WON/NOW is part of that which is CO-CREATING the future based on love and trust - Marilyn, Peter, Rupert, Elizabeth Satouris - there are many I could name who have made valuable contributions about GAIA - of which we are all part of - ONE,WON,NOW the new way is to follow the voice within from the heart - no more leaders - setting examples of integrity and service - Buckminster Fuller was another shining light - you might care to check out - at 81 and in his last year of life around 1983 - his message was integrity - The lack of which - as you see with Clinton, the Olympics, the world cricket - etc etc etc on and on is the real cleansing is occurring - giving everyone THE OPPORTUNITY TO SEE FOR THEMSELVES the corruption and evil manipulation of a culture based on power, control, manipulation, fear, and basically patriachal!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No need to apologise, I for one held the vision of your safe journey thru the ad venture you chose to explore.
EveryONE has to discover for themself - it is not for me/we/one to point out anything to anyONE one of the reasons for simply not responding to you during this period - after my first communicate about 'leaders'

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So Dear ONE/won,now - all lis perfect - and we are each one of us - a key element in the CHANGES and CHOICES to be made -

simply put - LOVE LOVE LOVE is the ONLY ENERGY - LOVE IS LETTING GO OF FEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
check Gerry Jampowlski book of the same name - a tiny little one, with powerful affirmations that lead to attitudinal healing based on the material of A COURSE IN MIRACLES

mucho lovo mello estello -

estelle myers
11 florey crescent, springwood, nsw, 2777 australia phone 612 4751 8401 fax 4751 8402
email estelle@pnc.com.au

Greetings, Jean...
I want to THANK YOU for sharing your sacred journey, in thru & out of yr involvment w/ the Truth Fellowship... the story of a relationship w/ Self... It takes great courage to jump in, commit totally and break off when that time comes... I honor You for that courage... and welcome you into the fuller Integrity and Freedom of your Truth... your own guidance & "bellypathy" I am sure have matured from this experience... We are all weaving threads in a large web and we don't have to understand why we are moved in certain directions at times: it felt good to you at that time and you engaged in that Perfection until it stopped feeling good... Aho ! a beautiful "incarnation" ...

I myself spent some years in a "relationship" with a "cosmic organization" before feeling that my power was used for unwanted "agendas"... then it was time to seek deeper Inside my Heart, my Belly and my Spirit... it was one of my first lessons in learning the art of discrimination + letting go of patterns of spiritual dependency and support of systems of consciousness that were not born of my Spirit Womb...
Bravo d'avoir survecu a l'aventure et de la savoir parfaite... love,

Aya

In beauty may I walk -- a Navajo prayer

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